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alhamdulillah...alhamdulillah...alhamdulillah...

there's no other words that I can say right now, but Alhamdulillah.

if it was destined for me to die on that moment, maybe my last post would be on the 7th of april, but alhamdulillah, the Owner of the time, still let me live.

the past few weeks feels like a marathon through thousands of hurdles. the feeling of tiredness mounting up like an Mount Everest. but hey, do I even deserve to feel like this? the marathons is just a warm up. there are thousands and millions of marathon runs needs to be finished before my the time Owner take my life.

yesterday, mixing around with the elders and talking with sis mum, was an amazing experience. they help me to understand more about this life and the marathon hurdles that every daie and murabbi must face. university life is just the beginning, and the hardest part is the next one on the line.

there will be a part of life where more responsibilities are being put on our shoulder. the part of life where you are not just thinking about yourself, but also the well being of the others. the part of life where your work demands more that what you could give. the part of life where your little ones need every detail attention in order to become a better abid towards Allah swt. and every second of life where there's no choice but an obligation that you just have to do everything in your power to improve yourself, and those around you to become a better abid to Allahs swt.

sis mum did mentioned that, throughout those parts of life, continue and keep continue to be in THIS road. although the road is full of test and hurdle, that sometimes can make you drop on your face. no matter how slow and hard it is, keep on going and keep on going. make every second in every part of your life as a full sign of obedience towards Allah swt...insyAllah...